gemsofjannahWhen my heart, my attention and my focus drifts away from Allah, a sense of suffocation elopes me. Every action done, every moment spent feels as though there is no purpose in it. With pursed lips, I try my utmost hardest to call Your name, but Rabbi, Ya Rabbi I feel so very ashamed. -
Here I am, calling unto You, whilst all this time has passed by in Your neglect. I've been using the days You have given me, busy and preoccupied, but my heart and mind hasn't really settled with You. But that's what I want, that's where I want to be, just somewhere close to You, in a shelter called Your mercy. - But Your mercy is here now, it's pouring down from the Heavens, and I can do nothing but turn my heart's gaze towards You. Shower me with Your mercy, pour down upon me Your forgiveness, and accept me in to the Heavens without account. For surely I desire to be amongst those whom You grant entry to. - Rabbi, my tongue has become heavy, due to the absence of Your glorification and praise flowing off of it. My heart has become dark, filled with melancholy due to the presence of everything but Your illuminating light. My finger tips numb and cold, without the energy that sprints through my veins when I engage in Your remembrance. Rabbi, my body is but flesh with no life and soul when I wander through the streets umindful of You. But when I find You, and I realise that You're still waiting for me, my heart erupts with sheer joy. My eyes flow with tears of grief and regret, because You love me even when I dont deserve to be loved. My desire is to be close to You, and it's a battle I endure every day. My heart longs for Your company, whilst my Nafs desires the world. But I've got to keep on fighting because I know that this is but a test of the world, a test of my faith. - Remember us in your duaas during the blessed rainfall.😊 -
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